Jan 13, 2012
Howdy Folks,
I'm sitting in my apartment which currently is an ocean of finished canvases. I'm sending these out shortly for my 2012 review at two different entertainment studios with week, which is both nerve wracking and exciting at the same time. I'm trying to get these out before a crew comes over to camera rig my apartment to do a stop motion session of how I paint for a web TV series in Los Angeles.
My life is surreal, and all of this is weird, and I really don't know how this all happened... but while it seems like this is all happening overnight, its actually been a long grueling process to get to this point of surreality.
Back in 2006/2007, I used to write fondly about my past. A lot of my stories were pushed to this exuberant colorful edge, because... without realizing it, I was day dreaming about the past, because my present was so awful. I've been trying to druge up stories to fondly remember about Seattle nowadays, but those years were fueled with such loveless'ness and riddled with addiction, that ... its been kind of hard to have anything to say about it, other than 'i learned my lesson'.
I think thats where this session comes into play. I've been building on my dj set for a few weeks now, but only really wanting to play these Hannes Fischer and Ormatie tracks back to back.. but... for some reason Partial Arts "Trauermusk" kept on floating back into my head... which was strange because I hadn't listened to since that one day back in late 2007 in Seattle Washington.
I was sitting on this wet bench at 2:00am overlooking Lake Washington and the distant city of Bellevue across the water. It was raining per usual in the city, but this low fog was also coming through... which masked the city in front of me in this murky glittering beauty.. which also reflected on the water.... I was listening to this track while the rain pattered on my umbrella and occasionally splashed on my hoodie that draped over my overly bleached head. I felt miserable and sad from all the circumstances and actions that built into this terrible state. I was confused... on how life got to be as terrible as it did (which were clear results of my own actions), and just didn't want to come back to my apartment, where much of the misery resided.
But Partial Arts came on, and the track played... And I sat there listening to it, and realized how beautiful everything was. Here, I was listening to this incredible song, and there was this beautiful view... and I was sudden encased in this protective shell, ... this bubble of a beautiful moment inside a larger bubble of life's woes.. And it was incredible.
- Ormatie- Mon Etoile
- Partial Arts- Trauermusik
- Souls of Mischief- 93' Till Infinity (Hannes Fischer Mix)
- Ormatie-Thus and So
- Little Dragon and Tycho- Little Man (Hannes Fischer Mix)
- Harald Grosskopf- Synthesist (Blondes Remix)
- The Orb- Traumvogel
- The Field- Leave It
- Paul Kalkbrenner- Queer Fellow (Ellen Allien and Apparat Mix)
- Gas- Pop Untitled 14